Some of friends might see me as the "lucky" or "smart" girl because I am accepted in various events or scholarships. But they don't know how many applications I've applied and how many essays I've wrote to be able to get The Acceptance Letter. I failed, sooo many times. Just like today. I received another rejection letter. Even though I've braced myself for another rejection, it still hurts when I read the letter.

Sometimes I wonder, why I keep on trying? Not to mention each and every failure that I got makes me wonder about myself, am I that... bad? But deep down inside, when I apply, there is a hope within me that says, there is a probability that I can pass this application. Why don't try it?

A random quote that I found on google: 
Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
Winston Churchill

Not really sure whether this quote is authentic or not, but I hope, every rejection that I received will make me stronger and stronger. And like my friend said, at least I tried.

Cheers!

Miranti

In the middle of my crazy last semester days, I would like to show you my other piano work. I would like to present you another Indonesian children song cover with title "Tik Tik Bunyi Hujan" (tic tic the sound of the raindrops). For all Indonesians out there, let's sing along together :)

Originally posted by stringless_kite at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012

Seriously 2012, seriously??

We started with the awful news of Tokyo Jihen disbanding. Now my research is in jeopardy due to.... lots of things. And two weeks full of rain, cold and gloomy day is really not making my mood any better. Besides, I really really need to do my laundry.

*sigh*

Sleep deprived Miranti. Off.

ps: I love Star Trek. 

Two days ago, I got a message from a friend. Two friends (one of them is the one that I mentioned here and here) are coming to Canberra! They were exchange students from overseas who finished their study at ANU last year. I was very happy yet very surprised. I never thought I will meet them again. They said they are going back to Canberra to visit us again, but I thought it won't happen. I'm very glad that they keep their promise. They're graduating and will start their work life soon, so this trip might be the last of its kind.

So, this leap year, 29 February 2012, is a special day because I got a visit from old friends that I thought I won't see again any more.

     [pic or it didn't happen]     

*Finally my friend uploaded the video*

A few months ago my friend, Wayne, graduated from ANU and moved to UQ. Before his departure, we recorded two songs, one of them is Adele's Someone Like You. I know this songs is over played, but it's not a sin to spent only 4 min of your life to watch this video and support this wonderful singer.

Cheers!

Miranti

Humans.
If they know it will only hurt them in the end, why still do it?
If they know they can avoid being hurt, why still not avoid it?
If they know that they don't have any chance, why still try?
If they know it is hopeless, why still hoping?
And why I still do all the things I mentioned above?

You know you love someone when you never forget to mention their name on your pray, every day. Wishing nothing but the best for them, even though it might hurt you in the end. Wishing nothing but to see their smile in every possible moment. And you never want anything in return for all the things that you did for them. You do it because you want to make them happy. That's all.

To let go of something that you really want is hard. To know that you have the chance, yet you can't have it is very painful. To finally let go the dream that you've been dreaming for ages is difficult. To accept the reality that you're not what you think you are is very challenging.

Life. It hurts sometimes, but I know I will survive.

I don't know why I suddenly bumped into this video. I love this song, and this arrangement is just very beautiful. I remember when I sang this song in a cappella with my friends in HiroDai. That was also the first time I tried to arrange a song. 

In memory of those good times in HiroDai four years ago...

As I mentioned in my twitter, I have new project named Tembang Cilik (little songs). Basically, it's a project to cover various old Indonesian songs that slowly became forgotten. Of course there are hundreds of videos of Indonesian children songs on youtube, but I am tired of all the electronic sounds and the disco-like rhythm on children's song. I would like to introduce the beauty of acoustic instruments with beautiful arrangements on children's songs.

So far there are two people in this project, me and my senior here. Unfortunately, both of us are keyboard player. I would love to have more people supporting this project, especially non-keyboard player. So far we already recorded four songs in which three of them already uploaded on youtube. I also put the lyric, so for any Indonesians out there, you can always sing along with the video.

So, here it is, tembangcilik <3

For all Indonesians out there, please help us support our children's song. Too many awesome songs, yet too little voice to sing it.

Tokyo Jihen is disbanding.

The ONLY band that I really like with all my heart is disbanding.
The only band that every member I adore is disbanding.
The only band that I like but I haven't watch the concert is disbanding.

But well, somehow I could see it. I can see that each member of this group has very strong capability and persona.
It needs lots of compromise from all of them to work together. 

On the other hand, I like Shiina, but I won't say that she's better solo. Solo Shiina and Jihen Shiina is different. Solo Shiina is more pop-jazz, while Jihen Shiina is more rock - jazz. Both of them have their ups and downs. I don't really like Sanmon Gossip but I really like Sports. I don't really like Jihen's last 2 singles while I really like Carnation. I like both Shiina as soloist and as part of Jihen. So yeah, I am heartbroken.

Dear 2012, are you sure you're going to be less dramatic for me than 2011? Cause you start in a very wrong way.

Be still, my heart. Be still.

2011 has been an amazing emotional training for me. I experienced all possible emotion that human being can have. Anger, hatred, love, happy, sad, accomplishment, disappointment, and so on. I'm definitely not Ron Weasley who has the emotional range of a tea spoon. 

2011 has trained me to be a tougher person emotionally. My laziness and my procrastinating habit was not going anywhere, but my capability to cope with emotional breakdown and stress is (hopefully) getting better. Somehow I also found my self became closer to God. 

So what I've done/achieved/experienced in 2011?
1. Another ISFiT, another backpacking to foreign land.
2. My first Credit, but also my first High Distinction.
3. I learned how to play clarinet!
4. Perform, here and there, from Festival Indonesia 2011, Ied Al Fitr Festival, Interhall Talent Show, UC College of Music year end concert, and more.
5. My first ever piano competition and school of music audition.
6. Heartbroken.
7. Personal/family problems.
8. I learned how to sew, and I enjoyed it too much.
9. I'm active in student organisation again

To sum up, this year has been a very dynamic year. Too many ups and downs that I couldn't even understand how did I manage to through it all. I am still not sure about the future. I haven't said it here, but I passed the school of music audition and not to bachelor degree, but to graduate diploma degree. No matter how much I want it, I don't think I will take it. Too many things that need to be compromised, and I don't think it's worth the struggle. I love music, and I would love to study music for real. It's one of my biggest dream. But I feel I'm being too selfish if I want to study music for real.

In the end, I really hope 2012 will be a blessed year for me. I never have any new year resolution, but this year I have 1 resolution: to know what I want to do in the future before the end of 1st semester 2012. I would love if the scenario in my head is working properly for 2012, but I don't think it will happen. I have never been that lucky....

So, ciao 2011, hello 2012. I hope I can pass you without any significant bump along the way. 
My real life will start in 2012, so I hope we'll have a good term.

Mir.

ps: Who's chasing the pavement? Not me any more. Go away. Shoohhhhh!

This is the moment in my life that I hate most. One by one, my dearest friends here are going back home for good. It makes me realise that there is nothing eternal in this life. There must be a moment when we have to say good bye to people or things that we love.

I can't imagine what I will feel when I have to say good bye to this house, this university, this city. Even though it's only been 1.5 years, I've experienced a lot of things here. Through all the ups and downs, I know that I am not the same person with me 1.5 years ago. I don't know whether this change is good or not, but I know one thing for sure: my friends here already have a special place in my heart.

At the moment, my heart is overflown with emotions. It's good to know that my friends are finally got their degree and finally can go back home, but it's heart wrenching to know that they won't be around any more. On the other hand, I know that in the next 7 months, I finally can go back home, but it also feels very heavy to part with this beautiful city.

Well, I don't know what to say any more. I'm just...

T_______________T


Mir

No, I'm not going to move to dreamwidth. Yes, I'm staying with this old LJ. It's my home for years and up until now, I don't have any intention to move.

Btw..

HAPPY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAY!
Let's enjoy the last days of 2011 with love, laugh and happiness.

Cheers!

Mir

Wow, a cover video that's not related to any japanese song nor my original song.
Christina Aguilera - Hurt, sung by my friend, Wayne, with me on piano.
Wayne really has a good voice! You should check his other video :)


This is a practice for Burgmann College Talent Contest, in which we won and go to second round, intercollege/hall talent competition XD


Unfortunately, I'm messing around with the piano in the instrumental part T___T
I did much better in the real performance, but that's another story.


Meanwhile, please enjoy!

Today, I supposed to finish my rough draft of my research outline, but I'm just too lazy, so I ended up reading my livejournal. I made this account around 2006, but then I closed it and opened it again on 2007. I had more than 340 posts in 4 years. Not too bad lah :)


Reading your old posts makes you think about lots of thing. It makes you remembered all the good and bad things in the past. What hit me the most is the fact that I've changed a lot. I don't know, from the way I write, I speak, I talk, everything's changed. I used to have much more colourful texts, random and gibberish language, and long looonnngg post. But now? Well, you can see from this post.


My life's journey in the past 4 years has taught me lots of things that I never thought before. It also makes me wonder, what about the future? What will I be? What kind of change that will happen to me in the next 3-4 years? 


"Time, look where we are and what we've been through"


#random #random #random

What is home?


For me, it's the place that I belong to.
A place that will welcome me any time.
A place where smile and stories linger, 
where cries and anguish are shared


A place where you learn about life,
through bitter and sweet memories
A place to seek for comfort and safe,
even though it might not always be there


Can I say that this place is my home?
Can I say that Saijo is my home? 


Perhaps I should quote the unofficial Australian national anthem


"I'm always traveling, I love being free,
and so I keep leaving the sun and the sea,
but my heart lies waiting over the foam
I still call Australia home"


I am sure my lovely friends would know which place I would call home.



Miranti, 22 August 2011


ps: It seems my cold and headache made me ramble too much.
pps: The title, I'm sure all of you know where I quote it from ;) Kanjani8 - My Home
ppps: Just watched Love Actually. Damn that movie! Makes me want to go to airport and see familiar face waiting for me T___T