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22nd-Apr-2015 04:40 pm - Down!
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Stay at home, Down with cold with heavy cough and runny nose. But I finished a book! A pretty nice one, and this is the quote at the end of it:

21st-Apr-2015 01:03 am - Sanctuary
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Digital life, social media, can make our life pretty f***** up. That's the message that I got after watching "Men, Women, and Children". It's like a double-edged sword. In one side, all the online world gives you freedom, a freedom to be you or anything that you want. A freedom to write anything, say anything, show anything. It has a vast population and pretty much the world is your audience. Who doesn't want their videos to be viewed by million of subscribers? Or meet people who share the same interest with you without being burdened by geographical boundaries? Or simply being connected to people that you care regardless the time and distance.

But all the good things come with a price. You can't control your online world, no matter how hard you tried. Like this blog. Every one can read what I'm writing. Probably there are some of you who are my family, my real life friend, my stalker, my online friends, or simply a stranger that based on some algorithms stumbled to my blog. You can't control what you're looking too. Yes, we have choices to filter what we want to read or see online. But sometimes those filters aren't working, and you just feel disgusted, crazy, sad, frustrated, in rage, for things that you accidentally or not acidentally found online. It's funny how our life now is controlled by some algorithms.

So I had some episodes, and it still running until now. I feel enraged, jealous, angry, about every thing! About things that I found around my social media, about people, about everyone. I just....dislike everyone. I don't see the point why you all (according your online persona) looks very happy, content, satisfied with your life, while I'm just... here, dealing with myself, with all my problems, my anxiety, my dislike of myself. I don't get it why people think I should be doing this or that, or why people think I'm this or that. It's just pressuring and I dislike it. It just makes me dislike myself more and more. It takes months for me to start being positive again, and not even now I can say that I'm back to how I used to be, because I'm not. I've been trying to move on, left the past and try to find myself again. It's damn hard. I'm trying, but it still hard.

I don't want to trust people, to hang on to them, cause the last time I really trust someone, it just went bad. And it hurts. And I believe it is a very normal thing for a human being to be defensive, to protect themselves. It might sounds wrong, but this is what I'm doing now, try not too involved with people. I'm functioning perfectly fine actually. I do my job very well regardless how I feel about it. I hang out sometimes, went to some events, trying to be normal. But no matter how I tried, I just don't feel it. I do not feel content, or happy. In the end, I keep on good relations with people even though sometimes it kills me, and I keep people in distance too, even though it kills me.

Then here I am, in my livejournal, in my little sanctuary, where I can say what I want to say, where I don't give a s*** about what people think of me, where I can dump all my songs, my feelings, my life. I need to move forward, and this is just one way to deal with it: by writing about it. Cause at least I can figure out what is wrong.

But no matter what, when the day ends, all I long is a warm embrace where I can cry the s*** out of me.

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Mind you, this is gonna be my first (and probably last?) of its kind, a non-geek, tech noob female review of a mobile phone!

I'm a picky buyer. If I want to buy something (especially if it's pricey), I googled and googled, to ensure I choose the good one. So for around a year, I've been wanted to buy a new phone, but this time, instead going with my usual $200 budget, I want to have a very good one. I used Xperia J and a pretty shitty K-Touch phone before and I want to have something better. I was looking for a small phone (cause I have pretty small chubby hand) with good photo quality, good recording quality, crisp screen, proper battery life (I don't want to charge twice a day), and since it's a smart phone, I want at least 2 GB RAM and a pretty fast processor.

I ended up eyeing for Xperia Z1 compact. I was prett happy with Xperia J since it somehow has very good voice recording quality (pretty much all my recent soundcloud and youtube recording were recorded with my Xperia J). I lost count of people saying, "Really? It was recorded by phone?". Not to mention for below 5 inch phone, Z1 Compact has the highest spec compare to other phones. It has good battery life too and I read lots of good review about that phone. So for around 6 months, I've been waiting for Z1 compact price to drop a little by little.

But then in the last quarter of 2014, Sony released Z3 compact with better spec than Z1 Compact. Oh my, I'm doomed. The price is around $130 much more expensieve than Z1 Compcat (which is a lot for Rupiah), so I've been in doubt about that. But after a while, I surrender. Finally two months ago I bought my orange Z3 compact.

I was very happy cause I never had a phone with such good performance. Very fast, highly responsive, long battery life (not as long as my J, but I can go a full day with only one charging, and I'm a pretty active user), great screen, good voice recording quality, good camera, I was very happy with that. My only concern was I couldn't move apps to SD card and I read some people complained about the glass cracking.

Then this morning, I got a notification that I need to update my phone. I was very surprise to see that after months, Sony finally slowly update their devices with Android 5.02 (Lollipop)!!! I've been waiting this to happen cause theoretically, Lollipop has faster response and better battery life. So I played around with my phone and how happy I am to see that now my Z3 Compact can move apps to SD Card! Not only that, Lollipop has a new feature where we can change keyboard easily. Before, I had to go to setting to change my keyboard since I sometimes used google japanese keyboard. But now fear no more my friend, cause the button is stick there on the corner to change keyboard!

As for the home screen and the whole visual design, I never use Xperia home anyway. I always use launcer and this time, I use smart launcher. A very simple, clean, fast launcher with pretty minimal ads, not like Go Launcer that I used to use before. For glass cracking issue, I cover my phone with a soft case and so far so good. I've dropped my phone for few times and so far my phone can handle it.

So yeah, I'm happy with my phone.

9th-Mar-2015 04:14 pm - Ukulele
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My first song in Engliiissshhh! Never thought I would make a lyric in English, even though the lyric is very simple and basic. This is a very random song. I was about to sleep when I got the melody, then I had the lyric idea just a day after, as simple as that. English is my second language, I am not really used with playing with the words. But this is a playful song that's just for.. fun, so I kind of not using my usual word style. Nevertheless, even this is a playful song, I really mean all the words. Hey, ukulele is not as easy as it looks, people! It still hurts!

I just want to say
"Hi, how are you my dear friend?"
So I made this song for you

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9th-Mar-2015 05:15 am - Someday
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I read manga.

Today I spent my day browsing mangafox and I ended up in a manga which I forgot the title cause I pretty much skim the whole story. But during the end of the story, there's a quote that made me think,

" 'Someday' will never come"

How many times we think of something that we are going to do or to have "someday"? I, for instance, often said "I will have my own shop someday". For others, it might be something like, "I will stop smoking someday" or "I will visit you someday". But sometimes (or most of the times?), that day is not coming. We sometimes waiting for "the right moment" and "we will know when that moment comes",  but what if it will not come because we simply do not do anything about it? Someday might happen because there is a chain of events or interconnected events that lead to that someday. It might require lots of thinking, calculation, decision making, that might not easy to do. Yet, a small step is still a step. Rather than waiting for someday, or waiting for that moment comes to take the giant leap, probably those baby steps could connect you to other events in your life that might lead to someday. So rather than just saying, "I'll have my own tiny shop someday", probably it is better to start seriously expand my business, hire more people, more active in social media, go from bazaar to bazaar again, etc. Rather than saying, "I will visit you someday", it is better to start the trip plan, calcualte the budget, and save money.

Cause "someday" might not coming, that the day I have been wishing for ages might not happen.

ps: missing is an understatement. 
25th-Feb-2015 09:53 pm - Sing, sing, sing!
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So I've been in love with a cappella for decades. It started with a video clip of Neri Per Case on TV back then when I was 10 years old. I went through all those napster, audiogalaxy, until youtube era to find all a cappella gems. I was ecstatic when I finally had my a cappella group in Japan, and beyond blissed when I watched my favourite groups in concert in Australia. Now I'm back here and I kind of not really catching up with a cappella.

 But two weeks ago, there's an a cappella group from The Netherlands which is called The Junction that performed here. Of course I went to their concert. They are very good! They have pretty interesting arrangement, solid vocal, they made their own songs, and the fact they're only two years old make them much much awesome. But somehow, watching them make bother about two things. One, why Pentatonix became very famous while there are heaps of groups that as good (if not better) than them? Pentatonix is very good, but admit it, their arrangement is not stellar. Good, but not exceptionally good. They have awesome beatboxer though. Second, it annoys me a little bit how some of the crowd think very highly of The Junction, just because they rarely heard other a cappella group.

The point is, there are hundreds of groups out there, and I feel sad because some of the very good one are rarely heard here. And I don't understand why a cappella culture is not very common here, while there are thousands of good choir all over Indonesia? Is it because it's hard to find beatboxers? Is it because singing a cappella means you need to have a very very good pitch control? Or because we need to read sheets? Or...?

But whatever it is, Naturally7 is coming to Jakarta next week, hail music without musical instruments!


22nd-Feb-2015 05:10 am - Wire basket
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So FIli&Lino is going to have a pretty big even in the next three months. Our problem now is the booth display (beside our other main problem: production itself!). I've been lurking all over the web, and I'm in love with wire baskets or wire display. Something like this, this, or this. The problem is, I don't know where to find it in Jakarta! I've been to various shops and nope. The closest thing to these are at Scoop, but the wire basket there is so damn expensive!

And you may already know that IKEA is now open in Jakarta (well, Banten Province to be exact). So I thought, why not try find something there, especially when I pretty much fed up with Ace Hardware and Informa. And I found some stuff that I really like: a brand new RISATORP trolley (it's not even on their cataloge and website yet). Believe me, it's pretty big, not like in the photo. Pretty pricey, it's almost IDR 1 million (80USD) here, but I can imagine it will look pretty nice with our pouches etc. I'm also thinking of having one of their LACK long low table, for additional display if needed.

So, any idea where I can find an affordable wire basket here? And any thought about our product display? Where can I find good quality stuff for display that doesn't kill our bank account?


3rd-Feb-2015 03:26 am - I'm Hungry.
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Seriously. I gained weight and I keep on feeling hungry. Is stress coming to me in the form of gluttony?

This year celebrates bicentennial of Tambora eruption. Do you know what happened with the world when Mount Tambora errupted? A year without summer in Europe on 1816, failed crop all over the world, massive climatic change which was shown by crazily high rainfall, snow, and global decrease of temperature. It was the most devastating eruption ever recorded.

I put my threads, seam ripper, needles, on a used cookie can. Oh my, I'm becoming my grandmother.

This is a total useless random post in the middle of the night.

And I'm hungry.

25th-Jan-2015 04:15 pm - Day 25
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The world is a total reminder that I'm a complete failure.

You walk to the office. You see people with the same age as you working at a much higher position than you with salary 3x bigger than you. And you work "for" that person.

You work, and your counterpart is a freshgraduate who are 6 years younger than you and still have a better future than you.

You hang out with people, and you keep on hearing the talk on how succesfull people are with their job. How people are renting places with rent as high as your one month salary. How so awesomely smartass those people are that make you feel you are in a lesser caste than those people.

You went back home, and your mother expects you to have your own house in 5 years.

You go around, and you realise you have a better life than most of people around you, and you still feel unsatisfied and unhappy, and it makes you feel really bad.

You go online, and you want to go forward and be better, but it feels so hard to escape from all the stress and pressure that builds around you.

"I don't understand why people are very fascinated with things, money, materials. It is superficial. Your happiness are not measured by all the materials that you have"

Unfortunately, it is what people think as a measurement of success, and it is all around me, and I am drowned in that trend, and I hate it.

12th-Jan-2015 03:42 am - Days
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Happy New Year 2015, everyone! It's already day 11 of 2015. I'm very happy that 2014 is over, cause really, within my 28 years living in this world, 2014 is the shittiest year, ever. So dear 2015, please don't slap too hard. I was trying my best to stand up again, and I don't think I could survive if life slap me hard again.

But today, I was slap again with the reality, that my close relative is a.... bigot. I do not understand their utter hatred towards something. Dislike it sooo much that it clouded ther objectivity. I do not understand why the hatred, why can't you see it from different perspective? I am sorry, but I do not think I would like to see you pretty often. It's too hard to hear all your negative thoughts and preach. I can't.


ps: I still dislike my job.
10th-Nov-2014 11:18 pm - Today, a year ago
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So today is Heroes Day in Indonesia, a rememberance day of an heroic act in Surabaya to defend our independence from colonialists.

So life happen. Time changes. People come and go. And I stuck in a new job that I'm not really sure I'm going to stay for long, eventhough my employment is a permanent one.

Just got the result of my piano student's examination. I'm surprised! It seems like the examiner really like his playing, his style. Honestly speaking, I didn't have great expectations cause I struggle pretty hard teaching this student, but in the end, he did it, we did it. I'm happy for him.

JifFest is around the corner and I'm happy cause they'll have "Culinary Cinema" as their theme this year. La mia preferita! Min favorit! Food is good. Food is life. Food fills you with happiness.

That's all folks!

30th-Oct-2014 12:35 pm - Good Morning, Jakarta!
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My latest song, still draft, since my friend who usually sang my songs are still not in Jakarta.

The title is Selamat Pagi, Jakarta! (Good morning, Jakarta!). This is about the usual morning in Jakarta, that whatever happen in this big city, life will still running.

lyric/music: keretaterakhir

Hiruk riuh terdengar tak henti
Tanda hari mulai berlari
Walau waktu baru pukul lima pagi

Membuka mata
Dengan setengah terpejam kumulai beranjak
Berat rasa berpisah dengan bantalku

Mungkin mentari kan menyambut
mungkin awan hitam pun menggelayut
Mungkin hujan kan membasahi wajahku
Apapun yang terjadi
Ku kan tetap melangkah

Mengarungi lautan manusia yang mengejar mimpi di ibukota
Walau lelah namun senyum tetap terkembang

Mungkin riang akan menyapa
mungkin resah akan hinggap di hati
Mungkin kesal tak mau segera usai
Apapun yang terjadi
Ku kan tetap melangkah

Walau hari masih panjang
namun ku lega kita masih bisa berjumpa
Selamat pagi, Jakarta!
16th-Oct-2014 01:58 pm - The Last Song
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Nope, it doesn't mean that I stop making songs. This is a song that I made months ago but re-recorded. The title is Lagu Terakhir aka The Last Song. This is a song about moving forward from the past, from the injusticeness, from the pain, from all the lingering memories that was real but no more.

So please take a look, The Last Song

Vocal: Damar
Lyric/Music/Piano: Miranti



Kaulah napas yang mengisi relung kalbu
Ku bertahan saat kau pergi tuk menjauh

Ku hanyalah kabut yang melintas sesaat.
Ku tersadar tiada diriku tertinggal

Saatnya menutup cerita tiada akhir
Yang hanya menyemai harap
Melupakan buaian indah
Yang menghujani mimpi
Dengan air mata

Menutup lembar kisah lalu
Yang hanya menabur luka
Menghapus kata yang tlah terucap
Dari bibirmu

Kelebat sosokmu selalu mengecup tidurku
Namun sudah tiba masa kau pergi tuk selamanya

Aku berhenti dan takkan kembali
Ku memulai langkah meninggalkan bayang lalu
8th-Oct-2014 05:38 pm - Canvas
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My latest original song, titled Canvas.

Audio (downloadble)


vocal: @damarda
piano, lyric, and music: keretaterakhir


Sebuah kanvas putih
Ingin terisi dengan gurat
Ia bersenda dan tertawa
Dengan warna-warna

Satupersatu warna tersemai
Menguntai kisah penuh makna
Namun hitam pun berkata
Dan ia tak terhapus
Hangat dan ceria pun terhempas kelam

Kanvas telah terisi
Guratan telah berkelana
Apa yang telah terjadi
Takkan bisa kembali

Warna terus bercinta
Melodi terus terurai
Sampai maaf itu tiba
Dan senyum itu kembali

Satupersatu warna tersemai
Menguntai kisah penuh makna
Realita menyeruak
Kelebat masa lalu
apakah nyata?

Tangis pun hadir, sesal tertinggal.
Akankah kita kembali...
1st-Oct-2014 10:17 pm - 1 October 2014
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I'm officially 28, unemployed, single, and with a bleak future.

What will be will be.

5th-Aug-2014 11:56 pm - Sentimental!
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Dear Hirai Ken,

I adore you. I seriously adore you.


Your fans since.... I can't even remember when!

20th-Jun-2014 04:13 pm - Fili&Lino 2nd Anniversary Giveaway!!
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Yup, FIli&Lino is already 2 years old. Time surely flew very faasssttt. To celebrate our 2nd anniversary, we are having a giveaway competition!

Win these cute bag and pouch, just by sending us comment/feedback/anything about FIli&Lino, send to our e-mail filiandlino(at)gmail(dot)com or just by commenting the blog post. One best comment will win a bag and one lucky winner will win a pouch.

Please help us to grow better and win these cute freebies! THis competition is open worldwide until 25 June 2014, 23:59 GMT+7.

So what are you waiting for?

Much love,

1st-Jun-2014 12:56 am - I feel pretty creative
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New song! Can you imagine that? I made not less than 3 songs in the past 3 months!
This song, The Last Song, is a song about forgetting the past and moving forward.

Please enjoy regardless the very crappy recording quality. And even though you don't understand any of it, please take a look and feel free to give some feedback about it.

Thank you <3

23rd-May-2014 06:57 am - Oldie but Goodie
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So I started to record properly all my original songs. This one is an old song that I made in 2010 before I departed to Australia. The title, Cerita Hati, story of the heart.

Please enjoy!

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