Flash news:

- I'm finally graduated from International Relations Department, University of Indonesia. Yeahh!

- I applied for Romanian visa yesterday, and the embassy person said to me that the invitation letter have to be submitted by ISWInT committee to Centrul National de Vize. So I'm in such dilematic condition now. I have to pay for my flight on Tuesday, July 7th. If I still haven' got certainty about my visa, I don't want to take risk by paying for my ticket! But if they really going to work everything out, I'm afraid that it will be too late, and I missed my ticket. Dilemma!

- My choice after graduation: find job or continue my study. My lecturer said that I should continut to master degree. But... don't know.
I still need to search for scholarship and apply and blablablablabla. Soo many things to do!

These past days feels weird for me. I feel superbly sleepy at day, even though I sleep properly at night. I feel tired the whole day, even though I don't have much thing to do. And now, I feel headache. Super headache. Too much sleep? But then, I do feel sleepy.

The good news, FINALLY I finished my thesis! I submitted it on Monday (deadline day), finished all administration stuff as requirement final... session? summon? (what's the english word for Sidang Skripsi?). I don't think my thesis is that good, but at least it's already finished. The problem now is how to presenting my thesis in front of my lecturer. One more week, then good bye college life!

Time flies. The more I think about it, the more I don't believe it that I'm now in new phase of my life. I'm not regretting, nor euphoric. I just found it's quite... strange.... confused. Where should I go now? Wonder, what will life be now? That I really have to depend on my own feet. On everything.

The real challenge: life it self.

Perhaps I will miss college life, but I'm sure I'll have another interesting experience after this.

Miranti. Ijyou

Ok, I never felt as failed as now. Don't ask me why.

A dame ningen, maybe?

Seriously. Why? WHY????

I always believe on punishment or reward from God. Every thing that happened in my life, must be for reason. I never stop on thinking that all these bad things that happened is because I did something bad.
 
I am very thankful for everything that happened in my life. But there are times that you feel you cannot get through the hard times.

Oh well, the point is, I WANT TO SCREAM HERE. 

*sorry my fellow friends*

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why? WHY?

*sulking*
 

Ok, so at that time, I didn't have anything to do, so I just randomly play Eito songs, and hola, this is the result.
Very weird I think, and somehow I never be able to play perfectly. Still lots of missed notes, wrong chords, etc.

So, here it is.

Kanjani8 Song Medley on Piano

Some of hachi_n_theband members had fun at my house yesterday. We made this Jyounetsu Party our version, with an acoustic guitar.
This is a one take recording, sorry for our mistakes.

Jyounetsu Party Acoustic Guitar Version

guitar: gekoku_shou
Vocal: kazukiayuuma
Back vocal: michannosekai
arrangement: gekoku_shou and michannosekai

Title: Yakiniku

Rating: G (very safe)

pairing: yokoya? ayako? (can somebody give better name for this pairing?)

I made this after watching Iitomo, merengue, reading recomen – tsuuhin translation (thanks to en), and sendai 2nd day mc talk. Thanks to Sakura-san for making me doing this fic instead of finishing my thesis lol

( The first Yoko - Aya fanfic? Hopefully not )

After years (3 years?) I'm LJ-ing, finally I changed my layout. Not too much, just changing my headbar, changed the sidebar, and changed background. So today, instead doing my thesis, I did photoshop and ccs. What a nice way to spend a day ~____________~

There are some questions that I still haven't figured it out about this layout thing.

1. How to make my tag as list, not continuous?
2. I've googled and I still haven't managed to put twitter box on my sidebar.

The head bar photo is my own footprints. I took this when I was on trip to northern europe. When I went to Goteborg, I just took a random ferry to southern Island *since I can use my maxirabatt card for ferry to southern islands*, step out in this i-don't-know-the-name island, freezing out, took pictures, and since it's alllllll white, and fulllllll with snow, I took photo of my footprints on snow. Then after 30 minutes of walking around near the ferry stop *and being watched by local people. I thinks there're not many asian who goes to that island?*, I came back to the main land.

And that exactly what I do when I'm traveling. Go to unknown places, just walking, or go around by local bus, stop somewhere, took pictures, go back.


Now I really want to make other things by photoshop.

Miranti. Ijyou.

Last saturday my grandma came to Jakarta. She was here to attend an "elderly meeting". My grandmother came from West Sumatra, a matrilinealistic family that still holds our culture firmly.

In Padang Panjang, West Sumatra, we have this old traditional house that became our heritage. It's 125 years old and it's been visited by Indonesia's first president. Twice. It's very historical, indeed. You can see the photos of our house on my aunt's multiply here or here. As you can see, the ornament outside the house is very detailed. It's not very grand, but it's very beautiful indeed. I've only been there three times, and I love it already ^^

Ok, let's go back to the main topic. This house is divided by two, the mudik (right wing) and the ilir (left wing). My family is responsible for the ilir one. To make the story short, some times ago, there was an earth quake that damaged our house. Our family gathered money to renovate the house. Since it belongs to two different family lines, the account that holds the money was signed also by the mudik family line. And here comes the trouble. As you can see, money blinds people. My grandma said that the person who responsible for the mudik part demand to control the money for renovation. If she doesn't get the control, she won't cash down the money from bank account.

Of course, it's a problem for my family, since this person also did other thing. We have some sort of lineage tree called Ranji. Somehow, this person erased some part of the Ranji so my family, the one who responsible for the ilir part of the house, is not included in the Ranji. The motive? To take over our heritage. And I don't really know the detail, but it seems that there are documents that needs to be annulled because of this Ranji. And something about a threat letter to one of our elders from this person.

My comment: Come one, this is 21st century. I never thought that people that's still my relative would actually do this kind of thing only to take over the family heritage.

*mutung*

Miranti. Ijyou.