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15th-Jan-2017 05:09 am - Bang!
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2017 started in a hard way, literally.

Friday last week I went back home with online motorcyle taxi, like I always do every day. But the night was wet after the rain. In fact, it was still drizzling here and there. The driver went pretty fast on a slippery road, and it seemed like he passed through something bumpy on the road. I was thrown up and fell down from the motorcycle in the middle of the road. The driver didn't fall though. I tried to stand from the ground, my head was painful, and my clothes was wet. I took off the helmet and felt a pretty big bump in my head. Another motorcycle driver offered to take me to the nearest clinic and I said, no I want to go to emergency ward. It was drizzling a little bit, so I stop a taxi instead and asked the driver to drove me to the nearest hospital.

In the hospital I submit myself to the emergency, and Thank God the security at the hospital was very helpful. I sat in one of the hospital bed, waiting for the doctor to checked me. I was shivering very hard, then I cried. Pretty bad. I was panic, I was alone, I couldn't reach my dad's phone. And in those moment, I felt like, what if...? There are so many things that I haven't done, so many people that I have hurt, so many dreams that I haven't even started yet.

And that was the time when I feel so lonely. Gosh, I went to the emergency ward by myself after I had a motorcycle accident. How lonely does it sounds?

I was very thankful to a lady at the hospital who tried to calmed me, soothed me. Soon after that my boss whose house is nearby the hospital arrived, then my family. Glad to know the ct scan result was good, so I could directly went back home.

A week later, which is today, I found myself, saturday night, at my bed, feeling miserable. Curse you, PMS and all those hormones! But I know it's not only that. Things happened, and probably I just tired, fed up, angry, and a bunch other adjectives. Tried making a guide track for a song that I just wrote, but my left wrist still hurt after the accident. Dang.

Have I said my Chinese new year resolution? Since three years ago, instead of doing the usual year resolution, I do a Chinese new year resolution. No difference at all, except that at least I had another three weeks after 1 January to decide my resolution.

And this year, my resolution is to love myself.

I think all these rage and rolling coaster of emotion was rooted from one thing: that I dislike myself. So I will try to embrace me, accept my flaw and move forward. But first, let me do some googling on how to love myself.

M
27th-Dec-2016 10:51 pm - Year end note
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Its December 27th already, time for my year end notes.

So what happened this year?

I think it's pretty clear that 2016 has been punching us, the global citizen of the world, pretty hardly. Things that happened in my country, in the world, somehow strengthen the dichotomy between groups, ideas, people. Different is good, but it's how people embarce those difference is what worries me the most. Not everyone can accept difference. Problem will raise when people start to see their version of truth is the correct one and push people to agree with them, without being open to the idea that there might be some other kind truth out there. Sometimes, just merely acknowledging difference can make a big deal, can you imagine how awesome it is if people not only acknowledge, but also embrace and understand difference?

Well personal wise, I think 2016 is pretty ok, better than 2015. Still some hiccup, but overall, it went pretty ok.

But if there's one thing that can represent 2016 for me, it would be this.



This is my dream for years, to record my song properly. This song, Kanvas, is the song that I actually don't want to listen anymore. It hurts. But recording this song, I somehow learned how to deal with the past and move forward. I was very lucky and grateful to meet and find people that I can work with this song.

Other than this, everything pretty much stable. Work, finance, not much different from last year.

Next year will be a pretty busy year for me for the first half year. But I already decided, I will continue recording songs. I don't know how, but I will.

M
15th-Dec-2016 06:41 pm - Kanvas
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Remember when I said I finally recorded my original song? Well, after two months of back and forth with the videographer (cause they promised the video will be finished by first week of October but look where we are now....), the video is ready! And it is now already sat nicely on youtube, waiting any random people to see it.

Kanvas is a song about unintentional mistakes, untractable words, unerasable memories, and a hope for things to be back like it used to before. But deep down, we all know, no matter how hard we try, it will never come back.

For us, musicians, amateur or pro, there's nothing that we want except for being heard. So please, have a look. Give me a chance, your 1 minute time. If you don't like it, stop it, and grateful if you could tell me what are the things that you don't like. If you like it, grateful if you could forward it to people that you think will like it too.

"Kanvas is filled, strokes are wandering, what has happened, cannot be undo"



KANVAS
Back Vocal: Syauqi Destanika
Acoustic and Wah Guitar: Benjamin Gallagher
Keyboard: Miranti
Drum: Waldo Shariff
Lyric/Music: Miranti

Arranger/Recording Engineer: Ivan "Iponk" Gojaya
Back vocal Recording Engineer: Zacharias Szumer
Mix Engineer: Made Indrayana
Mastering Engineer: Benjamin Gallagher
Vocal, Keyboard, Bass, and Drum recorded at Roemah Iponk Studio
Back vocal recorded at Dasa V
Acoustic and Wah Guitar recorded at HAW Hamburg Tonlabor

Video by Adam and Sasa
Model: Dinda

Find the song at
24th-Nov-2016 01:32 am - That song.
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Do you have that song that somehow....seep into your mind and soul, that you keep on playing inside your head even though you are not listening to that song physically?

It happened to me this week.

A friend introduced me to Crowd Lu, a Taiwanese singer 8 years ago. I don't understand the lyric, but I was hooked! Love the chord progressions, the nuance. everything. Last week, I met my friend again and he showed me Crowd Lu's new album, What a Folk!!!. I listened to the whole album once. Then somehow, there's a melody that stucks in my mind, but I'm not really sure which song. So I listened the album again, and found the culprit.

It's 結婚鑽戒 (Wedding Ring) and when my friend told me the story of the song, it' sad AF.

And now, somehow I can't pass a day without listening to the song. Damn me and my "galau"ness.

So this is the song.

28th-Oct-2016 02:32 am - More of Selamat Pagi, Jakarta!
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It feels like it's such a waste if I didn't put the song on YouTube. I was actually planning to have a video of this song up on YouTube, but something came up, and the plan to have a video up on YouTube was.....postponed....indefinitely.

So instead, I dug YouTube on how to make a lyric video, and very happy to know that there are heaps of tutorial on how to make it on PowerPoint, pretty much one of 4 software that I have legally on my laptop....

This is the result, the PowerPoint lyric video that I made in 12 hours (well, it's more like 7 hours making and 5 hours watching tutorial and googling on how to do things -______-)

Thanks a lot!

M



keretaterakhir - Selamat pagi, Jakarta (Good Morning, Jakarta)

Lyric/Music/Vocal/Keyboard: Miranti
Back Vocal: Miranti, Yosua Cahyo Ndaru
Keyboard: Miranti
Trumpet: Made Indrayana
Trombone: Johannes Dewes
Bass: Yosua Cahyo Ndaru
Drum: Waldo Shariff

Arranger/Recording Engineer: Ivan "Iponk" Gojaya
Brass Arranger: Made Indrayana
Recording Engineer: Irene
Mix Engineer: Made Indrayana
Mastering Engineer: Benjamin Gallagher

Vocal, Back Vocal, Keyboard, Bass, and Drum recorded at Roemah Iponk Studio
Trumpet, Trombone recorded at HAW Hamburg Tonlabor
Artwork by Ai
19th-Oct-2016 10:08 pm - Selamat Pagi, Jakarta
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It's happening.

Without further ado, please enjoy, a song that I made, played by my so-called-band that I don't even know whether we are still existing or not. The song is available on itunes, spotify, groove, google music, etc.

Cheers!




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16th-Oct-2016 07:05 pm - Hola!
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I just realised I haven't post my latest original song here. The title is Kita Pernah Tertawa Bersama (we used to laugh together), you pretty much got the idea of the story, no?

So this song is actually a colab with a friend. I always have a keen interest of stories of people around me, it often became my source of new songs. And this one is preetttyyy much like that. It's a bittersweet story (as usual), about failed relationship, but let's face it, we used to laugh together, but no more.

Here it is!



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This is something that I truly believe. Based on my past experience with people and my personal experience, no matter how much you try, if you don't have any interest on something or someone, you just don't feel like it. It's highly logical. Why would you spend minutes, hours, days, months for something that you don't feel like to?

But sometimes, whether you like it or not, you have to make time. Probably it's because you already made some word about it, or it's part of your responsibility, or probably just for being nice. Sometimes important things become unimportant, and unimportant things become important becaue of this. But (again), we are the one who set the priorities, set the bar of things that we thought is important. So the question of whether you'd like to make time for certain thing or someone in your life willl heavily depends on these abstract variables to determine whether something is important enough for you or not.

Unfortunately, life is annoying, and I'm an egoistical bastard who demand things that I care about to be important also for you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and....

M
20th-Jul-2016 07:47 pm - What the f*** I'm doing with my life.
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Still in the spirit of the holy month, I'd like to deliver my Eid greetings to everyone. May peace and blessings be upon us all.

So what happened with my life in the past few months? Not much. But one of my bigggeeesst dream is finally came true: I am going to record my song properly. Or was. Whatever.

According to soundcloud, I have 18 original songs, 15 with lyrics, 3 instrumentals. I have other two songs that I put in youtube, so total I have 20 songs? Which is just laying there... in my social media account... just like that.

Two months ago, I had a talk with my friend, who is taking his master degree in sound design (?) in Germany. I told him that I want to record my song properly, but I don't know how, and he said that he's willing to help, to be the producer. Annndd that's how everything's begin. I then contacted some of my friends, asking for their help to join me in this project. After some ups and downs, we finally recorded two of my songs last weekend.

And boy, that was fuuun, and awesooomme.

And I'm happy. Very.

Then reality bites. Monday (yesterday) came. I was half awake (since I only slept for 4 hours). I arrived at the office little bit late. And I just sat on my desk. Trying to do some work, and couldn't. I just... blank, and dumbfounded. Suddenly I feel like I don't know what to do or say.

"What the f*** I'm doing with my life?"

I sat in my office, can't think, can't feel. I feel completely clueless (again) on what to do with my future, with my life. I thought that, after being alive for almost 30 yearss, I finally found something that I can root for, something that I can stand for. But nope. It's not there, it's not coming, and I'm still as clueless as before on what to do with my life. What I'm doing now is not what excites me, but what excites me will not pay for my bills (or in this case, my future mortgage, if we finally decided to own a shop).

So I called one of my close friend (thank God it's only 3 hours time difference), and as she said, be patient. Just, be patient, cause everything will fall into places.

So here I am, in my office, try to do my job, while keep on gazing to the heavy rain, wishing and hoping (and trying!) that everything will be ok.

M
13th-May-2016 08:47 pm - Hamilton.
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Yes, I'm joining the bandwagon.

I still live in Jakarta, thousand kilometers away from Broadway or West End, but it's 21st century. Every (or most of the) thing is on the internet.

Few months ago when the grammy hype was everywhere, there is one word that kept on buzzing here and there: Hamilton. Curious, I watched the grammy performance, and thought, why it was such a big thing?

Then last week came. We had a pretty long holiday and I spent my days in my room, streaming musicals on youtube. You know, me + musical = eternal love. I read about Tony nominees this year and found out Hamilton received 16 nominations. I wonder, why? So I dig youtube and tried to find some videos. And boy, now I know why they got all the nominations.

English isn't my native language, so when I hear a rap song, I could barely understand it. I then watched Hamilton's song video with lyric, and that's it. Lin-Manuel Miranda is a genius. The lyric was absolutely brillliant, like watching some epipsode from The West Wing but with setting on the 18th century. Add the music, the conversation, the music, the drama, then yes, no wonder Hamilton got 16 Tony nomination.

And the other great thing about Hamilton is it intrigues you to know more about the man himself, the history. I spent some time reading wikipedia about him, about other US founding fathers, just because of Hamilton, and I'm not even a US citizen. The power of arts!

So yeah, I might haven't watch Hamilton on Broadway, but I fell in love with it already.

And my fav, the Schuyler Sisters. Some feminism in 18th century, can't love it more.





M
24th-Apr-2016 11:35 pm - "But you have so many friends!"
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A friend once told me, "Sometimes you feel the loneliest when you're in a crowded place".
And I couldn't agree more.

So I talked to one of my pretty close friend, I told her that I feel lonely. But she said that I'm saying nonsense, cause I have so many friends. When she said that, I was pretty......disappointed. When I say I'm lonely, being told that I have lots of friends isn't helping. At all. It's only deepen the scar, questioning myself, do I really have that many friends? Why I feel like I don't belong anywhere when I have many friends? Where are they when I need them the most? Why I still feel lonely if I have so many friends? Why I feel like I don't really have someone that I could really trust?

Being lonely is not a matter of where you are or with whom you are hanging out with. It's about what you feel inside, about that little pang in the corner of your heart that keep on screaming, fill me, feed me. The feeling of snuggling in you little corner, cause you don't want to face the world. The feeling of wanted to belong somewhere, to fit in.The feeling of mistrust to people around you, that makes you can't tell what's really inside your mind and heart. The feeling of wanted and to be wanted. The feeling of helplessness, that you want to, but can't do. The feeling of being left behind.....

So yeah, I feel pretty much lonely, and number of friends isn't what I'm looking, it's a big hug that will fill my heart with warmth, and words that said, everything will be ok.

m
14th-Apr-2016 04:28 pm - Overflow
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When you feel you had enough.

My latest song, Tumpah (Overflow).


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I talked to my little cousin, asked her which (my) song  that she likes the best. She likes Sedikit Waktu and Kanvas (Canvas). And somehow today, I feel like listening to Kanvas.

I made canvas a day after my birthday. I was sitting in a bench in a book store, and the oveflown emotion was embedded into this song.

So I listened to this video that we recorded one and half year ago.



....but I can't help it. The short lived band (only two random jamming session) that I played with lingers in my mind. The bass line, the syncopation drum rhythm, all the awesomeness that happened in one band session is inevitable. Unfortunately, I still haven't got the final recording of this song, so one video that my cousin recorded is the only memory that I got, that the band session was real and my song sounds gooooood with full instrument!

FYI this is supposed to be an unlisted video since it's not the "final form", but since this is the only that I got, so here we are.



Hmmppphh.

I need more music in my life. Pretty badly.


M
31st-Jan-2016 09:21 pm - Hmmmph
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My mind is in such a messy condition at the moment. Very messy. I feel like straightening all these jumbled knots and ties in my brain (and my poor heart) but not sure where to start.

Next week will be a new Chinese year. Last year, my resolution was to record AT LEAST one of my song. But instead, I had a pretty long song writing block. But finally I made one decent song, which I still not recorded properly. You know, in a studio, with real instruments. But I was very happy that one of my friend were willing to do some... stuffs... with the song, even though we're pretty much 700 km apart. And yes, I was pretty happy with the result. So I can say that even though my resolution last year wasn't really successful, at least there's something?

Then, what's my resolution this year, in this Wood Monkey year which says I will be having a pretty bad luck?

My resolution is: To travel as much as possible. Even more, I'm planning to go to the beach (outside Jakarta). Every month. It's a pretty risky (and crazy) resolution, but let's do it. Rather than keep on stressing out about life, let's enjoy the fact that I'm living in an archipelagic country.

That's all for now.

And this is the song.



M
19th-Jan-2016 05:08 pm - To Whom It May Concern
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Blame it to the moody rainy season, this song happened.
To you who left and not coming back, this cheesy song is for all of you.

Hujan di Malam Hari



[Lyric]Ada rindu yang mengganggu
sesak yang meluap
Dan hati yang membuncah

Ada kisah yang terhenti
Pikir yang merasuk
Kemana kau pergi?

Malam menyayup
Mata menyayu
Hati terbuai rindu
Dan bibirpun melagu

Rintik hujan menemani
Menimbun sepi
Mengisi sunyi

Membawaku kepadamu
Walau hanya dalam bayang
Lenyap dalam rengkuhan

Malam menyayup
Mata menyayu
Hati dibuai rindu
Dan bibirpun melagu

Ku berbincang dengan pagi
Bertanya, mengapakah
dirimu hadir

Dan mengisi mimpi-mimpi
Hanya untuk membuai sesaat dan sekejap hilang

Hati merindu
Bibir melagu
kau tak lagi kembali
Walau ku selalu disini
31st-Dec-2015 06:17 am - Year End notes
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It's 31st December.

I'm really not looking forward to 2016. If last year I was really looking forward to 2015 due to the shittiness of 2014, this time, I feel like I'm not ready to face the new year, new challenge.

To sum up, I'm afraid, cause I feel I'm going to mess up a lot. And I don't want to be 30.

M
21st-Dec-2015 02:32 am - WAAAATTTTTTT?
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No, I'm not talking about the break up of the cute duo. But this is exactly my reaction when I watched a certain youtube video.

This one.



HOLY CRAP TRG WENT TO HIROSHIMA???

HOLY CRAP PDE (HiroDai a cappella circle) HAD A SESSION WITH TRG?

This is just absurd. When I still can't wipe "watching TRG live" from my bucket list, my a cappella circle in HiroDai actually HAD A SESSION WITH THEM?

I feel so old now, since I was there 8 years ago.

But the point is, what should I do so I can have a session with TRG too?

M
19th-Dec-2015 10:51 pm - (almost) Year End notes
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I'm writing this after I came back from one of my Canberra friend's wedding, which I didn't plan to attend in the beginning but ended up went anyway since I couldn't say no to my friend who asked me to go together.

Can't believe 2015 is going to end soon. It feels just yesterday I wrote about how shitty 2014 was for me.

So what is 2015 for me?

Well, it definitely a start of few things. I can say the best one is moving to my new job. But let's see next year what happen with my job.

Music wise, I had a song writing block. But thank God it's back in the last month. I haven't updated tembangcilik, but hopefully next year. I still do accompanying, but that's all. Still teach one two students, but that's all.

Business wise, fili&lino is getting busier, but I can say the management is still pretty messy. We did some clean up but yeah, pretty messy. Hopefully next year will be much better.

Social life wise.

Hmmph.

It's funny. Just today my friend said how I was one of the most active/famous student back in Canberra. And just tonight my friend asked me to hang out. But I've been rejecting lots of hang out invitation, or trying to dodge until very last minute. This year marks my come back after last year's mental shenanigans, and to be honest, I still can't cope with it pretty well.

Romance wise.
F*** romance. Damn you self esteem.

To sum up, 2016 sounds going to be another challenging year. At least that's what my Chinese horoscope says.

M
4th-Dec-2015 11:32 pm - A blurb in the midnight...
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...while editing some photos for next bazaar.

I never realise the importance of good product photo until recently. If you happen to visit Fili&Lino instagram page, you'll see that there has been some change in the way we portray our product. Still far from perfect, but you can see now we're not only focusing to the product but also surrounding, what makes the product more appealing, what kind of tone, colour, composition, etc that makes your product looks good.

It's not easy, and both me and Eci are still learning and trying to figure out our style.

But looking at the increase of our follower and custom order, I think we're already within the path?

M
3rd-Dec-2015 09:59 pm - Time
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You can't beat time. You might tried your best, but time keeps on ticking, and it will not coming back.

I made a new song, and the story of the song is pretty simple: the feeling when you have to go, far from home, friends, family, for some time. Pretty similar to my previous song, Cerita Hati, but with different sentiment.

So, here it is, finally a new song!


Sedikit Waktu

Lyric/Music/Vokal/Piano: Me

Senja
Mengapakah kau singgah
Tak bisakah menunggu sejenak

Menepis
Gundah menyambut kala
Tak ingin hari berganti

Resah menyelimuti
Harap pun menyapa

Tapakku terhenti
Batinku terdiam
Namun pagi telah menepi
Dan ku harus pergi

Waktu
Kapankah kau berhenti
Tahukah kau kuragu melaju

Mengurah
Jalinan kisah kita
Menggemuruh di dada

Menatap senyum hangatmu
Tak kuasa bertahan
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