It has been years since the looming feeling of inadequacy usurping my mind. I often doubt my own capability, question my own skill, distrust my own opinion, and it intensified in the past half year.
I have been trying my best to climb out that deep well of insecurity, but every time I climb 2 steps, somehow I keep on falling back 3 steps. It feels like I am stuck in this web of string that keeps me not going anywhere. I need to get out, or a helping hand to take me out.
And here I am, still in the same blog that I made more than a decade ago, trying to find a refuge in a familiar place while cocooning under my bed cover and listening to DEH soundtrack. The combination of insecurity, inadequacy, the feeling of nothingness...
Will I be found?